In the end, I couldn’t stop thinking about him.

Sometimes i get so sad.

So sad that i completely shut down.

I stare blankly at the wall, and it doesn’t matter what you say to me.

Because in that moment, i don’t exist.

What’s wrong with me..?

Im not allowed to be happy.

I wonder if i will be happy this time around..

Maybe, not..

Hopefully, this will be the last time.

Maybe this is how it was supposed to be.

Yes.

You have lost me forever.